确据的检验:我们如何知道自己爱神?A Test of Assurance

How we know whether we love God?

He who loves God—desires his presence. Lovers cannot be long apart, they soon have their fainting fits, for lack of a sight of the object of their love. A soul deeply in love with God, desires the enjoyment of Him in His ordinances, in the Word, prayer, and sacraments. David was ready to faint away and die when he had not a sight of God. "My soul faints for God" (Psalm 84:2). Such as care not for ordinances, but say, "When will the Sabbath be over?" plainly reveal their lack of love to God.

He who loves God—does not love sin. "You who love the Lord, hate evil" (Psalm 97:10). The love of God, and the love of sin, can no more mix together than iron and clay. Every sin loved, strikes at the being of God. He who loves God, has a hatred of sin. He who would part two lovers is a hateful person. God and the believing soul are two lovers; sin parts between them, therefore the soul is implacably set against it. By this try your love to God. How could Delilah say she loved Samson, when she entertained correspondence with the Philistines, who were his mortal enemy?

He who loves God—is not much in love with anything else. His love is very cool to worldly things. His love to God moves swiftly, as the sun in the skies; to the world it moves slowly, as the sun on the dial. The love of the world eats out the heart of piety; it chokes good affections, as earth puts out fire. The world was a dead thing to Paul. "I am crucified to the world, and the world is crucified to me" (Gal. 6:14). In Paul we may see both the picture and pattern of a mortified man. He who loves God, uses the world—but chooses God. The world engages him, but God delights and satisfies him. He says as David, "God my exceeding joy!" That is, God is the gladness or cream of my joy (Psalm 43:4).

He who loves God—cannot live without him. Things we love we cannot be without. A man can do without music or flowers, but not food; so a soul deeply in love with God looks upon himself as undone without Him. "Hide not your face from me, lest I be like those who go down into the pit" (Psalm 143:7). He says to Job, "I went mourning without the sun" (Job 30:28). That is, "I have starlight , I lack the Sun of Righteousness; I want to enjoy the sweet presence of my God." Is God our chief good, and we cannot live without Him? Alas! how do they show they have no love to God, who can do well enough without Him! Let them have food and drink, and you shall never hear them complain of the lack of God.

He who loves God—will be at any pains to get him. What pains the merchant takes, what hazards he runs, to have a rich return from the Indies! Jacob loved Rachel, and he could endure the heat by day, and the frost by night, that he might enjoy her. A soul that loves God will take any pains for the fruition of Him. "My soul follows hard after God" (Psalm 63:8). Love is the weight which keeps the clock going. It is much in prayer, weeping, fasting; it strives as in agony that he may obtain Him whom his soul loves. Plutarch reports of the Gauls, an ancient people of France, that after they had tasted the sweet wine of Italy, they never rested until they had arrived at that country. He who is in love with God, never rests until he has a part in Him. "I sought him whom my soul loves" (Song of Sol. 3:2). How can they say they love God, who are not industrious in the use of means to obtain Him? He is not in agony , but lethargy . If Christ and salvation would drop as a ripe fig into his mouth, he would be content to have them; but he is loath to put himself to too much trouble. Does he love his friend, who win not undertake a journey to see him?

He who loves God—prefers him before estate and life.

(1) Before estate--"For whom I have suffered the loss of all things" (Phil. 3:8). Who that loves a rich jewel, would not part with a flower to obtain it? Galeacius parted with a great estate to enjoy God in His pure ordinances. When a Jesuit persuaded him to return to his popish religion in Italy, promising him a large sum of money, he said: "Let their money perish with them who esteem all the gold in the world worth one day's communion with Jesus Christ and his Holy Spirit."

(2) Before life--"They loved not their lives to the death" (Rev. 12:11). Love to God carries the soul above the love of life, and the fear of death.

He who loves God—loves his favorites, the saints (1 John 5:1). To love a man for his grace and the more we see of God in him, the more we love him—that is an infallible sign of love to God. The wicked pretend to love God, but hate and persecute the saints, who are his image. Does he love his prince who abuses his statue, or tears his picture? They seem indeed to show great reverence to saints departed; they have great reverence for Saint Paul , and Saint Stephen , and Saint Luke ; they canonize dead saints, but persecute living saints. Do they love God? Can it be imagined that he loves God—who hates His children because they are like God? If Christ were alive again, He would not escape a second persecution.

If we love God we cannot but be fearful of dishonoring him. The more a child loves his father—the more he is afraid to displease him, and will weep and mourn when he has offended him. "Peter went out and wept bitterly" (Matt. 26:75). Peter might well think that Christ dearly loved him, when He took him up to the mount where He was transfigured, and showed him the glory of heaven in a vision. That Peter should deny Christ after he had received such signal tokens of His love—this broke his heart with grief "He wept bitterly." Are our eyes dropping tears of grief for sin against God? It is a blessed evidence of our love to God; and such shall find mercy. "He shows mercy to thousands of those who love Him."

Use. Let us be lovers of God. We love our food—but shall we not love Him who gives it? All the joy we hope for in heaven is in God; and shall not He who shall be our joy then, be our love now? It is a saying of Augustine, "Is it not punishment enough Lord, not to love you?" And again, "I would hate my own soul if I did not find it loving God."

我们如何知道自己是否爱神?

爱神的人——渴望祂的同在。相爱的人不能长久分离;他们一看不见自己所爱慕的对象,很快就会因思念而昏厥。一个深深爱神的灵魂,渴望在祂的蒙恩之道中享受祂,就是在圣道、祷告和圣礼中享受祂。大卫看不见神的时候,几乎要昏厥而死。诗篇84:2说:「我羡慕渴想耶和华的院宇。我的心肠,我的肉体,向永生神呼吁。」那些不在意蒙恩之道,反倒说「安息日什么时候才结束?」的人,显明他们并不爱神。

爱神的人——不爱罪。「你们爱耶和华的,都当恨恶罪恶。」(诗篇97:10)爱神与爱罪不能相容,正如铁与泥不能相合。人所爱恋的每一样罪,都是冲着神的本体而来。爱神的人必恨恶罪。谁若拆散两个相爱的人,谁就是可恨的。神与信靠祂的灵魂彼此相爱;罪却使二者分离,因此,这灵魂对罪深恶痛绝,绝不与它和解。要用这一点检验你对神的爱。大利拉若同参孙的死敌非利士人暗中勾结,她怎能说自己爱参孙呢?

爱神的人——不会深爱别的事物。他对世上的事物,爱得十分冷淡;他对神的爱运行迅速,如同天空中的太阳;他对世界的爱运行缓慢,如同日晷上的日影。爱世界会蚕食敬虔的心,也会闷死美善的情感,正如泥土会把火扑灭。世界对保罗而言已经死了:「但我断不以别的夸口,只夸我们主耶稣基督的十字架。因这十字架,就我而论,世界已经钉在十字架上。就世界而论,我已经钉在十字架上。」(加拉太书6:14)在保罗身上,我们可以看见一个治死世俗情欲之人的写照和榜样。爱神的人使用世界,却选择神;世界虽占用他,神却使他喜乐、使他满足。他像大卫一样说,神是「我最喜乐的神!」也就是说,神是我喜乐的欢欣,是我喜乐的精华(诗篇43:4)。

爱神的人——不能没有祂而活。我们所爱的,是我们不能缺少的。人可以没有音乐,也可以没有鲜花,却不能没有食物;同样,一个深深爱神的灵魂,若没有祂,就看自己为全然失丧。诗篇143:7说:「耶和华阿,求你速速应允我。我心神耗尽。不要向我掩面,免得我像那些下坑的人一样。」他又与约伯一同说。约伯记30:28记着:「我没有日光就哀哭行去。我在会中站着求救。」也就是说:「我虽有星光,却缺少公义的日头;我渴望享受我神甘甜的同在。」神是我们的至善,以致我们不能没有祂而活吗?唉,那些没有神也能过得好好的人,何等清楚地显明自己并不爱神!只要给他们吃喝,你绝不会听见他们为缺少神而哀叹。

爱神的人——会不辞劳苦地得着祂。商人为要从印度群岛满载而归,要付出何等辛劳,冒何等危险!雅各爱拉结,为要得着她,白日受尽炎热,夜间受尽寒霜。爱神的灵魂也会不辞劳苦,为要享受祂。「我心紧紧的跟随你。你的右手扶持我。」(诗篇63:8)爱就像钟摆上的重锤,使时钟不停运行。这灵魂多多祷告、流泪、禁食;他如同在痛苦中竭力争战,为要得着自己灵魂所爱的那一位。普鲁塔克记载,法国古代的高卢人尝过意大利的甜酒之后,就再也不肯安歇,直等到他们抵达那片土地。爱神的人也绝不安歇,直到自己在祂里面有分。雅歌3:2说:「我说,我要起来,游行城中,在街市上,在宽阔处,寻找我心所爱的。我寻找他,却寻不见。」那些不殷勤使用蒙恩之道来得着神的人,怎能说自己爱神呢?他并非在痛苦中竭力,乃是在昏睡中麻木。基督和救恩若像熟透的无花果一样掉进他嘴里,他倒乐意接受;但他不愿让自己太费周折。一个人若连一段路也不肯走去探望朋友,他果真爱那位朋友吗?

爱神的人——把祂看得胜过产业和性命。

(1)胜过产业——腓立比书3:8说:「不但如此,我也将万事当作有损的,因我以认识我主基督耶稣为至宝。我为他已经丢弃万事,看作粪土,为要得着基督。」一个人若爱一颗贵重的宝石,岂不愿舍下一朵花来得着它吗?加莱亚修斯舍弃了庞大的产业,为要在神纯正的蒙恩之道中享受祂。有一位耶稣会士劝他回到意大利的罗马天主教中,并应许给他一大笔钱;他回答说:「谁若以为全世界的黄金还抵得上与耶稣基督和祂的圣灵相交一天,愿他们和他们的钱财一同灭亡。」

(2)胜过性命——启示录12:11说:「弟兄胜过它,是因羔羊的血和自己所见证的道,他们虽至于死也不爱惜性命。」对神的爱使灵魂超越对性命的爱,也胜过对死亡的惧怕。

爱神的人——也爱祂所眷爱的人,就是圣徒(约翰一书5:1)。一个人若因别人有恩典而爱他,并且越多在他身上看见神,就越爱他,这便是爱神确凿无误的记号。恶人自称爱神,却恨恶、逼迫带有祂形像的圣徒。一个人若毁坏王子的雕像,撕裂王子的画像,他能说自己爱那位王子吗?他们似乎的确十分敬重已经离世的圣徒;他们十分敬重圣保罗、圣司提反和圣路加;他们把死去的圣徒列入圣品,却逼迫活着的圣徒。他们爱神吗?一个人因神的儿女像神就恨恶他们,怎能想象他是爱神的呢?基督若再次活在世上,也逃不过第二场逼迫。

我们若爱神,就必定惧怕羞辱祂。孩子越爱父亲,就越怕惹父亲不悦;他得罪父亲时,也会哭泣哀伤。「他就出去痛哭。」(马太福音26:75)基督带彼得上了祂变像的山,又在异象中向他显出天上的荣耀;彼得本当由此想到,基督何等深爱他。彼得领受了基督如此显著的爱之记号,后来竟然否认基督,这就使他忧伤心碎;「他就出去痛哭。」我们的眼睛是否因得罪神的罪而流下忧伤的泪?这是我们爱神的有福凭据;这样的人必蒙怜悯。「爱我,守我诫命的,我必向他们发慈爱,直到千代。」(出埃及记20:6)

应用:让我们作爱神的人。我们爱自己的食物,岂不更该爱那赐食物给我们的神吗?我们盼望在天上所得的一切喜乐都在神里面;那位将来要作我们喜乐的,岂不也该现在就作我们所爱的么?奥古斯丁曾说:「主啊,不能爱你,难道还不是足够的刑罚吗?」他又说:「我若没有发现自己的灵魂在爱神,我就要恨恶自己的灵魂。」